It's been a while...

It's been a while... and I haven't written, I haven't breathed, I haven't smiled and haven't thought. It's been a while that I have been barren, arid and dry, it's been a while.

I am not myself anymore, I don't seem to recognize me, am I more me than the guise that I'd seemed to be?

When I chose my name, Al Mulhama, I never realised how close to the truth it may have been... Upon searching on the net one would find many returns reflecting the Sufi faith but mostly it is the inspired self.

"The Inspired Self - Nafs al-mulhama

If the nafs al-lawwama progresses farther along the path, improving itself, becoming more tolerant and inspired, perhaps even creative, it becomes what is known as nafs al-mulhama, the inspired self. It develops a ‘live and let live’ attitude. It says, ‘why not?’ or ‘It’s crazy - let’s do it!’ Everything goes, even the wildest ideas."

I had lost this inspiration for four months now and finally, today, a trigger nudged from my slumber. I received an email from the author of a book Irving Karchmar Master of The Jinn : A Sufi Novel. which seemed to come from the mist as a wake up call. I will not go into Sufism as I know little if any, but I will say that it's spirituality heightens the soul to the nth sky, perhaps spirituality in itself does so for me.

In any event, coincidence, fate, kismet, call it what you may, has brought this to my humble doorstep and like a 10 year old faced with a ferrari, I didn't know what to do? where is the door? What is a window (this is begining to sound like Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance???)

A week ago as I was feeding my mind junk food and channel surfing I fell upon a 70's version of an older Arabic movie by the name of Rab'a Al Adawiya.

I reflect and think, I may have misplaced my inspiration...

to be continued...